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I like to think of ‘YOLO’ more like YOLO I had an extra cookie not YOLO I had unprotected sex with the whole school.

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But whatever lol.

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I’m so grateful that days like today are rare.

It’s one of those days where I just woke up in the crappiest of moods, and I don’t even know why. To my disadvantage, I am the type of person that, even though I don’t get caught up in the small things that go wrong in life, the moment I have something big that I’m worrying about, I start to look at all the small things as well. Today was exactly one of those days. In a week, I’m leaving for Romania, and my wonderful parents decided it would be appropriate to come back to the US 3 days before move-in day. Like, college move-in day. Now, originally I was completely on board with this plan, strictly because before last year, I hadn’t been back home in 2 years and I just get really greedy about being home with my family. This past month, however, the amount of stupidity behind this idea finally hit me. For one, I’m packing all my college stuff this week and it’s killing me. I keep throwing stuff away and crying hysterically and meh. No. These are emotions I should not be feeling for another 2 months. My room shouldn’t be empty right now. Then, there’s the fact that all my friends will be taking the baccalaureate until late July, meaning there’s nothing for me to do until late July. I guess my cousin offered to take care of me for that time, but still. It’s not the same. And even when they’re done with their exams, I don’t know how my friends will react to me being home. I don’t know that it will matter. I mean, distance is a shitty thing. People and relationships fall apart, especially when you’re a continent away from each other. Now they all have their own group, their own love interests, their own lives. I’m sure I’m not anyone’s top priority once exam day is over. And then there’s my last, main concern. I’m actually unsure whether or not to call it a concern. Like I’m not freaked out about this, but I just wish it weren’t an issue. This summer I just thought there wouldn’t be anything to do in the US. Like, there’s my close friends but most of them are going to college with me or a state away, so it’s no biggie. But then there’s this wonderful guy, that I kind of have a thing with. Just kidding though. ‘Thing’ is an understatement. It’s so much more than that! I guess you could say I’m kind of sort of in love. Anyway, yeah. Long story short, we’re going to different colleges. In different states. And you know, we’ll try the long distance thing. And I really truly hope it’ll work out, because honestly I’ve never felt this way about anyone else before.  I guess I wish I could’ve been able to spend a bit more time with him before leaving for the summer, or, you know, before going off for college. That’s all. Just a bit more. I really do want to go home and see my family and everybody else. I just think that 2 months is an unnecessarily long period of time. I’m sure in the end it’ll be all fine and dandy and beautiful, and I’m sure the fact that we won’t see each other for this entire time will be good for us and hopefully either completely strengthen what we have, or make us realize that maybe we’re not as into it as we initially thought. Either way, it’ll be a win-win situation. Only one of the scenarios is much more favorable over the others. 
I’ll just go to sleep now. And sulk in my misery. All shall be well tomorrow, hopefully :) But for now, I need to get all the stress/emotion out of my system. MEH.  

Remembering high school.

May 18th, 2012 was quite the exciting day, except for it hasn’t really hit me until now. I took my last AP Exam ever. I went to my last high school class ever. And you know, it really shouldn’t be a big deal. I mean, life is just beginning. Or something. But it’s not like I finished college and I’m entering the job market or anything. Whatever. Point is, I was totally relaxed about it on Friday. It just seemed like the most natural thing to me- to say my quick goodbyes and be gone. But then I realized how much of my life is really ending. I realized how I won’t be able to spend the summer with my closest friends, and how I may not see them for a really long time. Sure, everyone’s all ‘COME VISIT ME IN ALL THESE FANCY OUT-OF-STATE PLACES WHERE I GET TO GO!’ and the idea of it sounds beyond exciting, but at the same time, I’ll be too busy being a broke in-state student saving money for fancy grad school. It’s so weird, cause I’ve been waiting to be done for the longest time, and now that I am, I hate it. I probably hate it because everything was going so well, and it still is. But I just wish I would have more time to enjoy everything that’s going well in my life currently. 

Oh well. I guess I have to accept the fact that it’s over, and be happy for all the memories, and just hope that people are as much into preserving friendships as I am :)

Life should be pretty good from now on though!